Today is about the lowest I have felt since I got so sick in October with the intestinal blockage. I woke up so sleepy. I ate breakfast quickly and just felt awful all morning. I realized i was freezing inside the house, so I put on a sweatshirt and full length blue jeans. (I was working from home because pipes burst in our building.) I was still cold and I climbed back in the bed for about twenty minutes.
I got up in time to sign in to work, and my second monitor was refusing to work. This is a recurring issue that our IT guy is puzzled by. But I got it to work and started in.
I got a series of the dumbest emails ever known to man. I replied to them with my boss copied in so he could see what I was dealing with. Then I got going on my other tasks, and the computer was randomly closing tabs and what not as I was working. I got up to refill my water cup I sip, and I started throwing up–just plain water, no food, just the liquid. So I told my boss I was sick and just signed off.
I’ve had a few popsicles, some toast, more water, and a small helping of chicken noodle soup and haven’t gotten sick again.
But my back aches–both across my shoulder and my lower back. Nothing tastes good or right to me. I’ve been crying on and off all morning. I tried soaking in the tub and I still ache as I’m actually trying to accomplish something. It feels like hot wires in my shoulders, and someone just flipped the electric switch. I’m still cold.
I don’t even feel human anymore. I’m sad and mad and achy and old. I hate feeling this way.